Damage

Man where do I even start. I met some really great people and lost some. I wish there was a way to right my wrongs. I wish my head wasn't so blah. I remember when my sister nikkie told me there's two things that ruin you. Boys and you now at first I ignored it simply because I didn't know what he he'll she was talking about. The first time I cried over a guy I had to rebuild myself. I changed completely my attitude my appearance my everything I stopped caring period. I lost most my friends over the stupid shit that I used to laugh at. I thought it was just me being grown just me being mature. But it wasn't till a lil after summer vacation I realized what my sister had meant. Boyfriends ruin you and the wrong answers ruin you. I caused damage to myself and to others around me. I do regret some of my decisions with that being said I do not regret the decisions that made me glow. I don't regret some of the people I met I can't fight the person that I've grown into. I'm not grown but am, I know most people think that its either you're grown or you're not. I am because I'm not like the rest of the people I'm around but I'm not because I still do the childish things that a man shouldn't be doing. I guess the only way to be grown is to learn from my mistakes and be a responsible responsive thinker. I know I screwed up and caused damage in other's lives and I'm sorry. I'm only human a baby in adulthood at that I just try to be me without corrupting myself any further its not easy. I guess when somebody damages you a respond by damaging others. But like everything in the world there's a dark side a silver lining and a bright side. Like every forest when fire has destroyed everything there's always new life stronger brighter more beautiful life waiting ready to spring into the world.

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