Shady Talk

What is your first reaction when you hear about someone talking about you behind your back, better yet how do you feel when you find out someone's been talking about you behind your back? Does it make your blood boil does it make you want to act extremely violent? I hate it when people do that it's just immature and annoying. I just think that if people have something to say then they need to say it to your face rather than saying it behind your back.

    Obviously when you say something behind somebody's back then you're a coward. I don't understand why people have to be so beneath an immature coward to say something when that person isn't there to defend their selves. You go around town and you see it happening in so many places such as; schools, restaurants, grocery stores, and even in your own home.

    Everywhere I go in the school I go to there are so many people whispering about other people and just by the snide looks and the cruel laughs you just know that it's going to hurt whomever their conversation is about. Most jocks and some cheerleaders are vicious about who they talk about. They see it as if you're not about sports or if you're not in their clique then they will attack you verbally when you're not looking. Some of the cheerleaders are the same way if you're not pretty then they'll tear you down every chance they get.

    It may seem low to just point out the jocks and some cheerleaders, but hey it's true if you don't like the truth then stop what you're doing. Unless you're just being yourself, and no talking about people behind their back isn't apart of whom you are its just being immature, low-down, and ignorant. It's even worse when someone is talking about you and they're no better then you, and if you're that person stop while you're ahead. As a matter of fact if you talk about people behind their back period STOP IT RIGHT NOW!!!

Levels of Society

Where do you stand in society? Where do your friends stand in society? Society has tricked itself into believing that there are certain people to hang around and certain ways you "have" to act around others to fit in. Its funny because no matter how much you try not to be a part of it you're always going be on a "level of society". I didn't notice this until last year after I joined the cheerleading squad. There were a lot of people expecting me to change and become stuck-up, but I stayed the same.

I've always considered myself to be "popular" no matter how many people knew me no matter who loved or hated me. The group I hang around are the ones to be known to have a bad reputation or known to the "dirties".....now in a way I can see why we're labeled that, but still why label those who have less then us. After joing the cheerleading squad I was expected to change to hang around "popular" people. I stuck to hanging around my friends the ones everyone considered to be "dirty" or have a bad reputation. I did that because it wasn't the "popular" people encouraging me to try out for cheerleading to do the thing I love doing. It was my friends who told me "go for it!" "show em your moves!" "make us proud!" and it wasn't the "popular" people who had a heart full of pride or who rewarded me with warm loving hugs. It was my friends.

I guess cheerleaders aren't suppose to hang around the "dirties" because it makes them look bad or whatever. But I'm determined to make Kennedy not have the stuck up reputation they have. My mom once told me "it only takes one person to make a change, one person to make a spark" My old principal Dr. Plagman once told me "everywhere you go people are going to look up to you and want to follow your actions just like they did your mom" Back then I didn't listen even last year I didn't grasp what I was told the way I needed to. I guess you can say that I didn't become a member of my own group until school started once more.

Now that I walk the halls and the streets of Cedar Rapids I see how people are judged, labeled because of who they are. Things need to change, but its not...at least not yet. When people are labled it spreads like a virus some areas are harder to convince then others.

I know I make it seem like I've never label people, but I do I try not to and its something I'm going to continue working until I can look at someone without judging them without knowing them.

Quiz Yourself

1. What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear about someone under age drinking or doing drugs?
2. What do you say when some who's not in your "clique" tries to sit with you or tries to talk to you?
3. What's your opinon on those who do thing differently then you do?
4. Do you try and meet with people who others consider "dirty"?
5. Why do you think people are labeled the things they are?

Review your answers be honest. Help change the ways of society, don't be one of those people who think they're better then others because you have more.

Duties

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Duty

My duty is to take care of the ones I love, to make sure that they're happy before I even begin to think about myself. When you think of duty you think of something that you're committed to, something you could be (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obligated) possibly be obligated to doing.

To me there are two kinds of duty; one meaning you're committed to doing something, and the second meaning you're obligated to doing something.

Take a police officer for example, he/ she's duty is to protect and serve the U.S. Should he or she fail to do that chaos is created and stupidity runs rapid and who would we have to blame? The police force because they failed to do their job.

Now take a random student at school for example, he/she might be committed to having the best school year possible or even having better grades than they did last year. That's the duty that they are committed to if they were to fail at it then nothing bad happens maybe a little sadness will occur, but nothing big. Why? Because it was something they were committed to not obligated.

Now me I'm both obligated and committed to taking care of my son Johnah. He is my world the reason I wake every morning. He is someone I will give my life for someone I will put all my time effort and life force into. If I were to fail in raising him the correct way then I have failed his mother and myself. When I saw his face I promised myself that I would make sure he got everything I didn't yeah its just like every other dad, but I am gonna see to it he does.

I made it my duty to take care of the ones close to me the ones I love as I previously stated. Not a lot of people can put others in front of themselves the way I do.

Follow Your Heart Listen to Your Mind prt1

What is my heart telling me right now hm.... Right now my hearts telling me things will get better if I just keep pushing forward and seeking out help. My hearts telling me I'll be ale to get rid of all these weights that are holding me down. I used to disregard the phrase listen to your heart, but when I finally started listening to my heart I found the path to my paradise. Since I was 15 years old I've been told that I had mental problems. Problems that I can't get rid of till about 3 months ago when I decided nothing was gonna stop me from living my life the way I wanted to live it, that included some disorder that a psychiatrist came up with to make money. I listened to what my mind was telling me to do, but sometimes your mind can mislead and you whined up doing the wrong thing. So nobody else is confused I'll go ahead and tell you the whole story to why I've decided to blog about this particular topic today. First off I live with my aunt, uncle, and 4 cousins who I don't exactly get along with. I come from a place where things need order and freedom, however the order and freedom had to balance each other out. Living with my mom's sister things are not balanced out at all personally I think its because of me. I do a lot of things so much differently then they do that it causes commotion in almost every occasion sometimes we settled it ourselves other times it got real ugly. So I started staying out more often to keep the peace. During school days I went to school, came home did my chore, leave and not come back till around 8, eat, take a shower, then pass out. While I was out I would hang with friends, go to parties, or go on a date. Well soon I started to only go to parties, I got drunk or got high and making unwise decisions that I still do from time to time. Now I'm about to say something that most of you would not agree with, but before you judge me keep reading. I've gotten to the point where I don't need to under the wing of guardians or parent so to speak. My maturity level has gotten so high it fools others into believeing that I'm older then what I tell them. Now yes smoking and drinking isn't mature I'm well aware of that, be that as it may I'm not perfect I'm going to keep drinking and smoking when I the time calls for it realizing this is what helps my maturity stay above the average 17 year old. But anyway before I stray too far I want to live on my own now where I know I'll have at least 50% control of what goes down in my home, not that I'm ungrateful just that I need to get out on my own this would be me listening to both my heart and my mind.

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